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I heard myself say, “Can I take her? Just for tonight. Until you figure things out.”
“No.”
Every time I tried to leave, panic would flash across her face.
“I know.”
“This isn’t a babysitting gig,” she said carefully.
She made me sign some forms right there in the hospital hallway before she’d let Avery leave with me.
who’d already lost everything
more strangers.
One night became a week. A week turned into months of paperwork, background checks, home visits, and parenting classes I squeezed between 12-hour shifts.
“Daddy, can we get the one with the dinosaurs?” She froze immediately, like she’d said something forbidden.
I crouched down to her eye level. “You can call me that if you want to, sweetheart.”
forbidden.
So yeah. I adopted her. Made it official six months later.
I built my entire life around that kid. In the real, exhausting, beautiful way where you’re heating up chicken nuggets at midnight and making sure her favorite stuffed rabbit was always within reach when nightmares came.
I switched to a steadier schedule at the hospital. Started a college fund the minute I could afford it. We weren’t rich… not even close. But Avery never had to wonder if there’d be food on the table or if someone would show up for her school events.
I showed up. Every single time.
I built my entire life around that kid.
She grew into this sharp, funny, stubborn girl who pretended she didn’t care when I cheered too loud at her soccer games but would scan the bleachers to make sure I was there.
By 16, she had my sarcasm and her mother’s eyes. (I only knew that from one small photograph the police had given the caseworker.)
She’d climb into my passenger seat after school, toss her backpack down, and say things like, “Okay, Dad, don’t freak out, but I got a B+ on my chemistry test.”
By 16, she had my sarcasm and her mother’s eyes.
“That’s good, honey.”
“No, it’s tragic. Melissa got an A, and she doesn’t even study.” She’d roll her eyes dramatically, but I could see the smile tugging at her lips.
She was my whole heart.
Meanwhile, I didn’t date much. When you’ve watched people disappear, you get selective about who gets close.
She was my whole heart.
But last year, I met Marisa at the hospital. She was a nurse practitioner — polished, smart, and funny in a dry way. She didn’t flinch at my work stories. She remembered Avery’s favorite bubble tea order. When my shift ran late, she offered to drive Avery to a debate club meeting.
Avery was cautious around her but not cold. That felt like progress.
After eight months, I started thinking maybe I could do this. Maybe I could have a partner without losing what I already had.
I bought a ring and kept it in a small velvet box in my nightstand drawer.
Maybe I could have a partner without losing what
I already had.
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