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A woman stepped inside—her clothes still damp from the storm, her hair pulled back in a messy bun. Elena. From the cemetery.
My stomach dropped.
She wasn’t here for me. At least, I didn’t think so. She looked almost embarrassed as she slipped quietly into the back pew. But the sight of her cracked something open inside me.
I inhaled sharply, turned back to Claire, and finally whispered, “I do.”
Applause burst through the room. Claire exhaled in relief, gripping my hands. But I felt no relief—just a strange, raw vulnerability, as if the wedding vows weren’t a victory, but a surrender.
Our honeymoon in Vermont was beautiful—the lake, the cabin, the crisp autumn air—but silence made my guilt louder. One morning, as we drank coffee on the porch, Claire finally said what I’d been avoiding:
“I’m trying,” I muttered.
Her question sliced through me. She wasn’t angry—she was hurting.
Back in Seattle, Claire scheduled grief counseling for us. I resisted, but went anyway. That’s where Dr. Weiss said something that changed everything:
Weeks passed. Slowly, painfully, her words began to make sense.
One night, I finally sat down to write the letter I’d been avoiding—the one addressed to Anna.
When Claire found me, she whispered, “Do you want me to stay?”
And as I read the letter aloud, something inside me finally broke open.
But what happened after—the decision we made together—would change the course of our marriage forever.
In the weeks after reading the letter, something shifted between Claire and me. Not instantly, not magically—but slowly, like ice thawing in early spring. For the first time, I wasn’t fighting my grief. I was learning to live with it.
Claire wasn’t threatened by Anna. And I realized I didn’t have to be threatened by the future.
Dr. Weiss suggested something unusual:
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