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I dropped the letters. MY OWN BIRTH. The dates. The revelation hit me with the force of a physical blow. A thousand forgotten moments suddenly snapped into horrifying clarity. My father’s distance. His inability to fully embrace me, a constant reminder of his greatest mistake. My mother’s boundless, unwavering, fierce love.
She couldn’t have children. My existence, as her child, was a choice, a monumental act of love and sacrifice. She took in the child of her husband’s infidelity, a baby that would forever bear the mark of his betrayal, and she loved me. Not just accepted me, but loved me with every fiber of her being, without reservation, without ever letting me feel anything but utterly cherished. She protected me from the truth, from the shame, from the knowledge that I was a living testament to their greatest pain. She took that pain and transformed it into the purest, most unconditional love I ever knew.
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