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Daniel started feeling tired all the time. At first, we blamed work. Stress. Getting older.
Then, his doctor called after a routine physical and told him his bloodwork was off.
I still remember sitting in the nephrologist’s office. Posters of kidneys on the walls. Daniel’s leg was bouncing nonstop. My hands clenched in my lap.
“Transplant?” I repeated. “From whom?”
“Sometimes a family member is a match,” the doctor said. “A spouse. Sibling. Parent. We can test.”
People ask if I ever hesitated.
“Then we’ll find out,” I said. “Test me.”
I didn’t.
I watched him shrink inside his own skin for months. I watched him go grey with exhaustion. I watched our kids start asking, “Is Dad okay? Is he going to die?”
We were in pre-op together for a while.
The day they told us I was a match, I cried in the car.
He held my face in his hands and said, “I don’t deserve you.”