The doctor trying to save my life in the delivery room was my ex-husband—the same man who left me pregnant in the rain. What I told him made him stumble back.

the way she used to—open, bright, alive.

She had started therapy. She had returned to painting. Her canvases covered the walls with storms breaking apart into gold.

One evening, she found me on the porch watching Noah sleep in his stroller.

“Mom,” she said softly, “were you scared that night?”

I looked out at the water, still beneath the sunset.

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